I was absolutely terrified of giving up alcohol too and I still remember how deep that fear was and what a hold it had on me. I could not imagine how to survive without drinking and was not sure I'd even want to. But the problem often escalates and for me, it escalated quickly to the point that I was about to lose everything. So I had to make a choice.
I'm glad you found us here at SR and I hope you keep visiting and posting. There's lots of support and encouragement here.