Thank you all. I have a strong faith. I've had it for a long time...through the ups and downs. I do pray for understanding. I feel like I've hit a wall. It 's like, when will the big "AH HA!" moment come when it all makes sense and I can get a grip on life? Ya'all, I hope I don't sound like I'm whining. I really appreciate the opportunity to write and feel like I'm being heard.