Congratulations Jillian!!! Little girls are such a blessing. Mine are 21 and 19 now.
You are ready for this in all ways Jillian. Your painful past and your amazing time in recovery are tools you can use to stay on your healthy and peaceful road. Remember the old adage from AA I think - It's ok to look back at the past. Just don't stare.
That beautiful baby will need you fully present and not too engaged with the past or the future. As you know already, it goes so fast.
Congratulations on everything Jillian!!!