Im so sorry youre feeling so sad. Sending you whatever good vibes and hugs I can. I know that I've drank because I was depressed and holy mosses did it make me so much worse. It definitely helps to think on when ive been tempted, my alcoholoc voice tells me that alcohol will help and then I laugh because I say, remember? Remember how I thought it would help and it literally made it worse?? Like our friend above said, I had to try something different, I hope you find your something different too.
Keep posting! It helps me when we can connect on these stories, i appreciate it. We want to hear about whats working and what isn't working, even if its just a sentence to say Go Me I didnt drink last night even though it was hard! Or to tell us about a good vapid tv series you binged or some really good new chip flavor.
all the best!!