- Can so and so tell I was drinking on the phone. I think I am good, but maybe not
- Smell - can they smell it on me, on my breath, oozing from my pores
- Shaking - I can't reach for money, sign my name, I'd better just keep my hands in my pocket
- Where did I put that bottle. I know I hid it, but where?
- How will I get to town to get more?
- How am I going to get this mess (house, vehicle, yard, whatever) cleaned up. I can barely make it to the kitchen - how will I tackle all of this? Usually I didn't. Just drank more to forget.
++In another thread I'd mentioned that after a year, I had a very vivid dream that I was drinking again. I woke up scared that I had lost everything. For whatever reason, the thought of drinking again is creeping in. I won't do it, because I KNOW where I'd end up very quickly. This thread is just what I needed today.