Hey guys I am back it's been a few days but I have been working alot. I am a block/brick layer and I have read all of your replies and Thanks. DWI you are not being harsh you are just being truthful. I had a long talk with my girlfriend and she decided to help me out and be there for me. And you are right I do not have to put myself around it, and I'm not... My homeboys that use it have been calling me to kick it but I know what hapens everytime I go so I am staying away. For me Work is the best medicine. I deeply appreciate your help and realize how lucky I am to have my girlfriend stick around when alot of other girls would just leave. I know that this just the beginning though and there will be harder obstacles in my way but I am ready to face them and get this demon off my back. I have the confidence the courage and the faith. Could someone please give me some info on the meetings on this site.