Well, Clean now for the under part of a week. Yea.....Thanks.
Ya know, I hate the pills now. I hate what it did to me and the strong hold it had. But I have to say...what is life all about? I feel good clean and stuff but....really. I have always liked to be altered in some state in the evening. A few beers, or a few tokes, a benzo, etc. (not all at the same time
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But it seems something will be missing. I quit drinking. I don't smoke weed. I take ambien at night.....Wow.
What is it all about? Kids? Wife? Work? All that is good and important but at the end of the hard day if you can't "escape" to a comfortable place, what is there.
Now, please...I don't want to use. I am not missing pain pills. Don't get the wrong idea. I am just wondering???