Bookbuff, its so tough but hang in there. glad to help you feel not alone. I hope you never feel alone because you are not alone! this forum is filled with people who are battling somewhat the same storms. some are further ahead and some are behind or right beside us. Give yourself time and grace, you are a rockstar for showing up to work and trying to make the best of it. of course you couldn't concentrate to the best of your ability but hey, you made it to work and you tried. that is 100% better than nothing at all. be kind to yourself. Allow yourself to cry and mourn, its all part of the healing. and please reach out whenever you want <3