Hi everyone! I wonder if others experience something similar. When I was in active drinking days, I remember looking at people who don't have addiction problems and not comprehending how do they even live like this and not have their life wrapped around alcohol. Although years sober from alcohol, I am in a similar spot now. I look at people around me, and I can't imagine what it's like not to be eaten by these intense desires, having this bottomless pit of longings and cravings for affection. You couldn't tell by looking at me. I appear well-adjusted, social, successful at work, active at church. But inside, I just feel like howling many times throughout the day. And I wonder what it's like to live a normal peaceful life without this constant gnawing.