hate smoking
I hate this I want Quit every day I try to quit then comes the overwhelming obsession to smoke and I cave. I made it 18 hours before caving at 1 pm today. I'm keeping this a secret and smoking in the shadows in secret. my friends know but not my family. my friends mostly smoke or vape so I can't get support from them. they say it's better than drinking. I feel so alone and isolated I'm living to smoke. I'm trying but I can't manage to string any time together. any suggestions would be helpful. I ve only been using nicotine 10 days before that i had 14 years smoke free. I forgot how hard it was to quit. I feel horrible congested and coughing I need to stop but all I can think of is lighting up. hiding it is the the worst leaving in fear of getting busted. I'm so ashamed of what I'm doing.its so stupid I can't believe even now that I started again.
David