Mags, I hope you have luck finding the chocolate Brazil nuts.
While meeting with a contractor from out of town yesterday, we found that we had a mutual friend who he sees occasionally now, but I knew him from school and haven't seen him in about 20 years. He described him exactly as I remember him and I thought about how people's personality doesn't change. I think that quitting alcohol is an exception to that rule though. I feel like my personality has changed somewhat since I quit, and may still be changing. To risk going instantly back to all of that on the off chance that I would be able to manage it this time, not a chance.