One year was really tough for me, so at 10 months don't get too discouraged you guys. I just kept telling myself as each week and month ticked off the calendar that I would never have to do that month again. It does really just plain old suck - there is no arguing that! I often think about now how the only silver lining is that PAWS scared me so much that it kept me sober. I think probably a lot of people are like f this and start drinking again, but it really freaked me out that I did so much damage to my brain. I think if I hadn't had this experience I would absolutely have gone back out and started drinking again a few months after stopping. I don't know if that is everyone else's experience, but if you need an answer on some of the days when you really feel like a heap of garbage, it's nice to keep in mind that this is the universe's way of keeping you sober.