I think why I stay is because I can’t seem to let go of how deeply I love the person he is sober.. however I don’t even know who that truly is because so much of our relationship he has been 2 completely different people. I feel like I can’t function without him. Must be my codependency, plus he is the only person I am/was close to. We experienced so much of the same trauma’s growing up. I just hope I can make it through this.