Tilz I'm not sure where you live but you definitely are not alone. Please pray and know you're doing the right thing by reaching out and asking for help. I know that in the city where I live there is an alcohol/drug residential treatment program designed specifically for pregnant women, and/or women that have small children and are ordered by the court system. I went voluntarily and it was one of the best choices I've ever made. My point is there are many programs available to help you treat your alcoholism and provide assistance with your pregnancy and other services, without judgement. Pls message me anytime. ❤️