Thanks for the swift response Dee. I get what you’re saying but I don’t see too much room for improvement, or maybe I am not looking in the right places. Everything is well in my life: I have a steady relationship, two kids, a good job, a nice house, I exercise a lot. I am not surrounded by friends who keep pulling me in. In fact, I am the only one left by a long shot who still uses (used) the stuff.
I am at a point now where I romanticise being sober when I use weed and romanticise using weed when being sober. I don’t see a way out of it that easily, other than just riding it out. But that’s proven to be difficult time and again.
Anyway, thanks for lending an ear
Much appreciated.