Chef! Good to see you, I was wondering about you the other day.
I have no Antabuse advice- but I do know that playing the tape forward was helpful in keeping me from drinking in the past. One drink is too many, 100 isn’t enough so why even entertain it is what it really comes down to.
it sounds like some work on your plan is in order, let go of the lie alcohol tells- it’s a life and dream thief. Enjoy that gig you have! I know it’s hard work, but it sounds like a great job.