Day 2
I've been forgiven by 4 out of the 5 people that were there. I had some sleep, did a bit of self love and feel more human again.
Sadly this isn't my first rodeo, but I'm not usually nasty and it's usually around people I don't know (at a bar for instance).
I will never do this to myself again. I didn't think I was going to make it through yesterday. But I did. Largely because of the support I found here.
Much love to you all, I hope you all have a magical Christmas.