I'm sitting alone as well, Ben.
My sister has invited me to her place for lunch. First time I've been out on my own for a very long time, and am looking forward. She lives near the beach in Bondi, and am pleased to say I will not be part of the drunken revelry that is bound to take place. Makes me so happy to be able to report this back to you. I'll spot a few drowning drunks, for sure. Oh, woe.
Sobriety is better than anything you can imagine Ben and hope you remain with us, your own imaginings realised at last.
Happy Christmas, Ben.