TheAten - Yes, don't forget - you aren't walking this road alone.
I was very emotional, sorry for myself, remorseful, regretful. As the 'real' me emerged, I was horrified as some of the memories began to surface. As I grew stronger, the intensity of these feelings began to fade. I started to appreciate that I was free. I was determined that I'd never, ever betray myself again by being numb & doing reckless things.
Time is what is needed - and thankfully, you have plenty of it on your side.