From the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous (p. 64): "Resentment is the 'number one' offender. It destroys more alcoholics than anything else."
And from p. 66: "[W]ith the alcoholic, ... this business of resentment is infinitely grave. We found that it is fatal. For when harboring such feelings we shut ourselves off from the sunlight of the Spirit. The insanity of alcohol returns and we drink again. And with us, to drink is to die. If we were to live, we had to be free of anger. The grouch and the brainstorm were not for us. They may be the dubious luxury of normal men, but for alcoholics these things are poison."
Now here's the punchline: I have come to conclude that there is a type of alcoholic for whom the only solution is fully committing to the recovery program of Alcoholics Anonymous. I have no idea whether you are one of those types, but I am -- so feel free to PM me if you want to chat more about that.