I started drinking at about 14 in varying amounts and varying degrees of being able to cope. My drink of choice was everything from vodka to wine. I held down a career, and I had relationships, but I was so deeply dependent on alcohol I had no idea that I could have a life of any meaning without it. I thought I loved drinking. My body began to hurt, I could no longer hide what was happening with make-up or sunglasses.
So at 54 I gave up, that was over a year ago. It took a while, it was not easy for me, and I really thought initially I would be doomed to a life of boredom. I was wrong. Life is not boring. I am not boring. I am as creative as I ever was, almost certainly more so. I look better. I feel better. My health is so much better.
I could NOT have done it without the people here on this forum. I urge you to post here as often as possible. It can be done!