Hi Midton, my story isn't exactly the same as yours but I started drinking alcoholically very young and got progressively worse till I was no longer functioning, just existing. I didn't manage to stop until I was 55. By then I was drinking all day everyday and was in a bad way.
I too had lots of injury's, black eyes seemed to be a favourite from falling flat on my face. Emotional injury's too from getting involved with other damaged people. My life was chaotic.
Now my life is relatively calm. I look back to my drinking days and cringe at the stuff I did. The authentic me is reserved, helpful and honest. The drunk me was out of control, selfish with no scruples.
It was the hardest fight of my life but very much worth it.