Originally Posted by
Badga 
Thanks a lot everyone. These messages have made me cry, in a good way.
During the brief 18 months of not drinking, I felt happy, healthy, lost some much-needed-to-lose weight, didn't have anxiety, was calmer, less agitated, slept better, had more money. I want all of that again....for good though.
I will keep posting.
Welcome back to SR Badga. The benefits you found during those 18 months of not drinking are immense. Maybe write them down and keep them to hand for when you start to feel like drinking in the future. Also write down what the last 18 months have brought you, when you were drinking again. It will make for a good comparative exercise.