I just can’t do it
Yet another day 1. I’ve had hundreds. I get a week or two under my belt, start to feel good and then go back to drinking. Feeling pretty hopeless today, full of regret and anxiety. I just don’t know what to do, I’ve tried everything.
I like to think of myself as reasonably intelligent but what I’m doing is just so stupid. I feel so much better when I don’t drink, I have hope, my anxiety disappears etc so why do I keep going back to it. It just doesn’t make sense 🥲