You CAN do this. I had been struggling and hit a few speed bumps and used it as an escape which only made me feel far worse and the issues were still there ( and exemplified by the alcohol) and there will always be issues I have to learn to deal with or negotiate. Situations that may seem intolerable or difficult are better dealt with a clear head rather than a foggy head with alcohol for me and I would assume for you as well. I am not trying to be rude or harsh. I have been working hard and keeping away from the poison and finding ways to work through life without it. Keep coming here, posting, reading. I wish you the very best.