I caused my last relapse.
I walked into a liquor store, puchased a bottle of vodka and drank it + many more.
What spurred me to walk into that store was an emotional crisis that made 'me' vulnerable and put my addiction in charge. Some part of my brain that doesn't communicate with 'me' didn't know what else to do, but had to do something. Hard to explain. But the bottom line is that there are some things that I simply can not try to address/confront without a titanium safety net. So... I won't, for the time being. And if I ever decide to take on my most (apparently) terrifying challenges again, I'll be sure to put some of that titanium into use.
If I ever drink again, I will be the cause once again.
What would have prevented it that last time? I don't know. The only thing I can think of would have been to not drink.
Circular reasoning, of course, but I think it's true?