Once the physical addiction went away the mental ramped up for about a year.
It still lingers to this day for me. The addiction says, go ahead, drink booze, who cares, f it.
But, the main person that cares is me. If I relapse I would let myself down. Then my wife, son, family, and job.
So, basically I suffer. Exercise is my main go to therapy to get "high." The high lasts much longer than booze.
Suffering and time.
I am a non drinker that was tricked into addiction. I didn't know any better.
Now I do.
The mental hell on earth subsided, even on day 1. There are strategies, like urge surfing, listed here and elsewhere.
Being sober is the best best best. Being a drunk is a nightmare.
That is all for now.
Thanks for the therapy.