Thanks
Thank you so much idget for the response and link, I think you are right that I need to take this at my own pace and it helps to know I have this online community, its often the best way I communicate is online since i can think about what I type before I type it.
I have so many questions, worries, fears and sadness and even a sense of relief right now and I know that I will be using this forum quite a lot at times depending on my life at the time.
I know this is the right step forward because so many things I have been doing up until now have not provided me the same sense that I am facing now, I feel blessed to have discovered the answer to so many things in my life and even though it means that I have to face past my denial which I hid so well in, I know that I am in the right direction now.
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