Originally Posted by
GhostFace 
Friends and family keep telling me that I can control it, but I'm convinced I can not. I fit all the signs of a functional alcoholic.
Well meaning friends and family, bless their hearts. Unfortunately, they can fall into two categories: 1)Either they have no understanding of alcoholism, or 2)They think they can make you feel better by telling you what you want to hear.
I'm doubtful that "functional" includes having blackouts. Unfortunately, we tend to resist the solution to our problem, because we want it some other way than what it has to be. When you finally do find your way to permanent sobriety, this reverses, and you will be happy you finally quit. You will look back at yourself and ask, "What was I thinking?"