Hi Leshar
I’m sorry about the theatre group. You should be able to express your concerns there.
I’m sorry about your thoughtless family.
I know the Ativan taper is rough. I think it’s making things tough for you emotionally.
I know you miss your husband and I know you’re lonely depressed.
I still hope you change your mind Leshar.
If drinking was the answer, or even the least worst option, you would never have come to SR in the first place.
you may have lost some drinking buddies but you have a multitude of friends here. Here, you are family
I hope you stay.
D
Originally Posted by
Leshar 
BTG,
Take care of yourself as you return to work. Your resilience is admirable.
Well, I'm out. I can't do this sobriety thing. 4 years, and I didn't grow. I will never not mourn my husband. I was berated yesterday at a Theatre Board meeting for being so vehemently opposed to Plaza Suite. The director had complained apparently about my comments, in particular, to the board, even though two other committee members had similar reservations. it's just because I'm a woman and he's a bully.
It was entirely unpleasant. Theatre used to be such a kick for me.
Then I get a photo text from my sister showing her, husband, and my brother and his wife arriving at the Irish mansion b and b they've rented for my brother in law's birthday bash. Other family members on his side arrive soon. No text attached. Just the photo. All the while knowing she didn't invite me. I will always be lonely. I've tried with many things, and it isn't working for me. Theatre is a source of tension now. Chronic treatment resistant depression and every treatment modality you can imagine with limited, no lasting effects.
Lost two friends because they don't like me not drinking.
So, I'm exiting the class, as I don't qualify. Good luck to you all. My thoughts are with you, BTG.