I'm really sorry Needhelp. All of that energy wasted on someone who knows he has to change but is not ready. Yet. And maybe he never will be. Who knows? I hope not for all your sakes.
Point is you need to take care of yourself and your child first, and foremost. It's really damaging for kids to be exposed to this sort of stuff. Dad snorts pills off foil! Yay.
Damaged self esteem, confusion, shame, lousy role model, the who box and dice. Only a toddler now, but this won't always be so. And YOU deserve better.
I hope you are able to stick with your resolve, for to do otherwise would only open the door for him to continue as before. No consequences. And without consequences there will be no change.
Will you be able to support yourself without him? Do you have family who can assist?
Always welcome here Needhelp.
