Hi Vexcia - It's great to have you with us. This is a great place for encouragement.
When I first came here I was still drinking - not entirely convinced that I had to quite completely. I knew I was dependent on it, & dangerous things were happening every time it was in my system. I felt all alone - no one in my life understood what I was going through. That was the best part about joining SR - the not feeling alone anymore. Everyone gets how you're feeling as you make this big change in your life. I hope reading & posting here will help you find the courage to get free.