Hi Peke,
I’ve been there, trust me. It happened when I was on my early 30’s too, and it was scary.
The way I see it now it was a blessing. Recognising you don’t love who you are means you’re not just living on auto-pilot and going with the flow, but that you are bothered by where life got you to.
The big question is how can you be the version of yourself you love? By asking that question and not being afraid of the answer I completely changed my life, you can do the same!