Advbike, Anna, Dee, Surley and Dusty:
Thank you so much for your replies.
Advbike…
I did see a therapist regarding the issue that I had when I was 35. She was great. She said that I had to accept what was happening to me. I didn’t do a good job of that. I started telling her that I was okay. And then drinking once a month in excess. It might be a good idea to get back into therapy. For sure it couldn’t hurt.
But I think the goal of loving myself is something that I need to work on. No matter how many miles I run, or how many friends I have, I still feel empty. And like a fraud. So I need to love myself.
Thanks friends.