(((Peke))) You matter. I don't even know you and you matter to me! Your story is already helping me stay sober. I am sorry for what happened to you, make no mistake, it IS important. Regardless of fault, regardless of how long ago, it is still affecting you. Holding onto that will keep you sick. One of the hardest things I had to do to get and stay sober was to forgive myself, the second hardest thing was to forgive others for what they did to me. It absolutely did not make anything they or I did right, but it allowed me to let it go. It was the only way I could get peace of mind and start to heal. Self-love came after my soul was free from the burdens of regret and resentment. Also, you come here when you want, this is a safe place with no room for guilt. If you feel you need to be here more often simply because you feel bad for leaning on us for support, you will find that it might get resentful to be here and that is not good.
Cathy