NewHeart.......I agree with you that Co-dependency is coming out....Co-dependency with a capital C.
The good news is that you know it.
I also think you are having some cognitive dissonance. It is hard to have strong attraction feelings and intense (justifiable) angry feelings at the same time.
I think it is dangerously close to the mind bending situation in abuse---when the person that you expect to love you is the same one that hurts you.
Of course, we know that the one who hurts you can never, ever, be the one that heals you.
I hope that you can get to the point where you feel a great and pure anger that you were treated as less than you deserved. That you can say---"HOw DARE he!"