One other thing is I am blaming myself for not reaching out to him more. When I confronted him on his coldness he said he wasn’t sure about the relationship due to work obligations. I then said that that wasn’t fair for me to wait around. I wonder if I threw a good thing away by not trying to work it out with him about how I could make it work despite his concern. But maybe that was a fantasy. He shut down and didn’t try and the previous comments about me being single and then the only times he had enough time to see me were late at night for sex. Anything else he became too tired for. It isn’t like as a recovering co dependent that I don’t know how to be accommodating. I just wonder if I pushed him away at the end without trying hard enough…it’s always my fault is what it comes down to