Kaily, you ARE loved! Your presence here is such a gift to all of us!
It sucks to go through low spells,I’m sorry to hear you have been struggling for quite a while now.
Can you reach out to a therapist?
The most important person to you is you.
Ive learned that I MUST love myself to give me that peace I yearn for. It won’t come from the acquaintances I have, or family, or my spouse.