Originally Posted by
Bekindalways 
Well done you. Yep, getting away from them is so so tough.
I didn't do the Alanon route but I used a lot of the concepts that Alcoholics use in recovery. Sober alcoholics say just put a sober head on your pillow every night. I would just try to get through each day without contacting him nor shooting myself (I was in pretty bad shape). Any day I did that was a successful day.
We really wind up as addicted as they are.
Yes! I can’t believe how hard it is just not contacting . And when he finally responds I feel like I can breathe again . A viscous cycle . Thanks for sharing, I feel so alone . Because I’m embarrassed of my actions