Thanks EZ. I didn't mean to downplay your situation if it came across as that. I know it is rough for you as well. Yeah holidays are going to blow with what was our anniversary and her birthday all so close together as well. I have some moments where I feel ok and then I see or remember something small and I need a few minutes alone to recompose myself. Maybe what you said is what will happen with her. I still have some hope for now but we'll see. Thank you so much man.