Hey EZ, thanks for checking. Doing my best but not too good tbh. Yesterday was the day I was originally supposed to go see her so I had that thought in my head all day and I just keep thinking of anything that could have changed how this happened. I just feel really sad and alone especially since I've been given no answers or explanations to anything. It just really sucks man. Also I went through your post as well. That's a rough situation as well and the only thing better for you I guess is that its a bit older so you've had more time to process.
The only thing I've found to distract myself with is I'm playing a bunch of new card and puzzle games on my computer when I have free time. It works sometimes and it doesn't sometimes.