sounds like you've convinced yourself your two choices are to go to the party or never connect with people again.
You don't need me to tell you what a false premise that is.
I bet you could find something else to do this weekend and people to do it with that wouldn't be as risky for your recovery.
Not going to this party doesn't mean you'll never go to a party again. It just means that right now you have the self awareness that you're struggling with mental health and with your recovery.
3 years or 30 years we need to be vigilant. And we need to work some kind of programme or plan that keeps us healthy in all respects - mental and physical. We can't always be happy but we can be at peace I think.
We need to strive for that place where we know drinking is not the answer, no matter what the question
We can resent that all we like but thats the bottom line, man.
I have 15 years and I don't go to every party I have an invite to.
Sometimes I don't like the people.
Sometimes I just can't be bothered getting myself in party shape.
and sometimes I just know it will be a drink and/or drug affair.
Its not for me and I'm not interested.
If you don't look out for yourself D noone else will.
D