That's not it I find very idea repugnant and appsolutly terrifying. I hate the very thought it would mean nothing matters. Anyway I'm letting it go. I'm used to be obsessed with aliens. My parents put me on anti psychotic med because I told them I believed in aliens. I was watching alien show 10 hours a day. Anyway I can't stand uncertainty . My mind is anxiety rat trap full of terror at every turn. Ultimately thier can't be a simulation because could alcoholic possibly br so ****** up. I'm mean you can't make this stuff up that goes on at least in my mind. The truth is truly stranger than fiction.
David