I am at 208 days and sometimes, including tonight, I feel the urge to drink because maybe this time I would be able to control it. It's that old common trap where the Addicted Voice tries to lure me back in.
Luckily I just know that I won't be able to control it. I know that once I feel that buzz I will chase more of it and drink myself into a drunken stupor. And then tomorrow I will start drinking again, while I begin planning on quitting again, which will take months or years and would be facilitated by an all new desperate low.
I just can't do it. I can't go there again. I hope this resolve continues to stay with me.
Thanks for your post.