Hi everyone
I’m an ACoA and let’s say I just realised that. I never really faced all the damaged that my alcoholic father and my dysfunctional family in general did to me until the day (a bit more than a month ago) my girlfriend dumped me. She told me that she couldn’t be in this anymore because I wasn’t even aware of having a problem (bursting in rage, avoiding intimacy, not being able to trust her) and as much as she loved me, that was enough..since then I started seriously a journey to understand who am I and realised everything. Now I feel so mad. She was loving me so much and I loved (I still do) her to. We had big plans for the future.I pushed her away . I don’t know if keep hoping on a possible reconciliation or just give up . It hurts and I don’t know how to face all of this.