Thank you Miss P. I can definitely relate to all that you said. It was initially upsetting to realize that I have so many toxic people in my life and for a while I examined what was my part in it. I know I was a mess and not a good person More recently those feeling are turning into relief I did realize that and peace with limiting my time with those people.
Cutting out alcohol has taught me so much. One key thing I’ve realized is once I recognize that something is not good for my well being it’s not something I can tolerate and ignore for long. I have to change it in some way.