Well, eventually I ended up taking months off from work because that’s what it took. It wasn’t convenient and I didn’t want to do it, but I believed that I had absolutely no other option if I were going to continue existing on this planet.
You may say, ‘Oh, it’s not that bad for me,” and I would say that’s wonderful - it’s not that bad for you, yet. Because at one time, it wasn’t that bad for me either.
Addiction is not something to bargain with. It loves ambivalence. I’d recommend shutting the door on it, tight.
Sounds like you want to try the easiest road and I can’t blame you as I did the same. I truly hope that getting beyond your fear of withdrawals will launch you into sobriety. This works a bit differently for each of us, so it could happen for you even if it didn’t for me.
Either way, keep posting!