I know your post was to newfella contella, but it really got to me.
Newfella, you have done ever so well stopping yourself. I found even when you eventually get the services provided by the NHS they are beyond shoddy. Long waits between appointments and promised help that never quite materialises.
My young niece (14) is in dreadful trouble. My sister, her mother died Xmas Eve last year, suddenly.
She had had a bit of bother with her mental health before then. Now she is cutting herself. She has been in hospital twice with overdoses (paracetamol, the worst thing to overdose on ever!)
Her father has gotten her the services that are meant to help. But do little good.
I wish we could get through to her that life is worth living, she is young, things won't always look so black.
I hope you are at the point you see this newfella 🙂