I take full responsibility for becoming addicted to alcohol.
Sure it has addictive properties and is glorified constantly by many but I made the decision to abuse it.
I say this because I have a good friend who does not drink. I asked him why and he said because he cannot control it once he starts. He has only drank alcohol a few times in his 50 some years and that was in his younger days. Realized very quickly what was happening and shut it down.
I sometimes wish I had his insight at that age and I think I did but ignored it to fit in and escape reality.
There were about 1 million times I thought, I shouldn't drink today, but Chose to anyway. I take full credit for that.
What matters now is we finally figured out how to get out of the loop.