Thanks for all the kind words folks, youve probably helped me be more positive than any nhs, another night down guys, i know its early days but i dont see myself going backwards.
there is such little help out there for drinking and this is the first time i found this out and will never want to be in the position again.
Im 33 and never really wanted to be alive since about 16, just think its not for me, i had the best i could get out of life until i was 15 when i started drugs that messed my head up for good, its a shame but for the people out there who really do want to be on this planet please strive on it and enjoy yourself